It’s hard, it’s really really hard.

It’s hard to even open up the computer, and take out your own CV, and start to revise them, and to build things little by little. In the hope that, one day you’d get to live at your dream place.

It’s hard that, when you are applying for LinkedIn jobs, you saw all your previous crush having incredible success in founding start-ups, and looking so……delicious. And it’s hard to admit that, yes, you are somehow far away.

And yes, it’s hard to open up the conversation on dating apps and explain to potential love that, how your life has tiptoed and you tried to pretend doing fine but failed miserably. Only you could tell how painful you were. And you wanted to pretend you were doing good, but baby, you were not. And you are not.

And it’s hard to just…….write all these things down after the phone call and realizing that you are not yet even accepted by your dream institute. Your representative failed once already at the second phase to convince the high table to hire you. At that moment, you knew you had to find something else.

And it’s hard to start from beginning — — — open your CV and custimize for the jobs.